Cheered up a bit my huge embarrassment... *hits head to the wall*
Tomorrow X-ray diffraction exam... I'm dead.

I enjoy sending Christmas cards and receiving them, but this year... I think I'll send cards just to my Godparents, my uncle and mom's aunt. I also hope no one sends me a card, cause I'd feel bad about not sending a card to that person. The same goes for Christmas presents. I'm not going to buy gifts for my friends [except for fonulyn and makaronikeisari] and I hope no one will get me anything. I just want to have a calm Christmas without any panic to whom I should get something and whom I've forgotten.

I'll spend the holidays at home, as usual, without contact to my friends, as usual, but I'll be with my sisters and have good time with them ^_^ [I have to figure out what to give them! *panicpanic*]

Enough for now, I suppose

I hadn’t realized how much he means to me. I understood it when I saw him talking with other women: I was jealous. My heart was telling me to go and slap the women away from him; say he was mine and mine alone. He is in my dreams and thoughts; he fills my head all the time I don’t have anything else in my mind. I want to touch him, be next to him, talk with him, inhale him… I yearn him, like a woman yearns a man. I want to be his, completely. I want to give my heart and soul to him. I want to touch him, every inch. Get lost in him. I want to be touched by him. Only a thought of him makes me excited. As the thoughts pile up, I understand why they say “want someone so bad it hurts”. Pathetic, very much; even more pathetic, not being able to say it to him.

Why do I want to dream of him? I can only break my heart…

Tomorrow I'll get the results of the course I shall not call by name. Sigh.
I've been writing one story on paper, continued one old on computer and started a new one [in Finnish] inspired Kaari Utrio's book. [Gee, I really love her books telling about old Finland... And I can pair the absolutely droolable and lovable knights with the women... If only men were like that today... sigh]
Guitar playing isn't as it used to be. I jut can't concentrate. I'm stuck with songs I know, I can't get better in them and they are coming out from my ears already [welcome home (sanitarium) especially, and I love the song till death]. I just can't get a hold on it and it annoys me to no end.
End of complaining.

First of all...

I hate mass spectrometry. Anything to do with it has been infected! The whole course is like a wall of polished rock. There's nothing to grasp and you just keep on trying, but you can't get anywhere. The lecturer has added material to the course, which was in itself already more than enough for 4 credits. [Well, I think he won't ask anything about the added stuff in the exam, though.] He didn't go through well enough how to interpret the fucking spectra, and it's killing most of us as we have no clue how it goes. [That will be in the exam, 95% sure of it.]
But yes, it will, hopefully, be over on Friday. And after that I won't even spit to that part of "science"! Well, on Saturday I will give some razor sharp feed back...

I feel like a whimp, like usually. This goes for my emotions and expressing them. I don't want to complain more about that. I need to get something done to it...

Today as I was cycling back to home, I started to fool around. I began to put my mitten better and of course I couldn't wait till standing in the lights. Well it lead only to one possible thing. Reaching my ground state... *facepalm* There's a new hole in my skirt, nice bruise in my left elbow and both of my knees are bleeding. The left one is worse, the wound is deeper and it hurt much more than the right one, I just pray nothing is broken. I should go to shower and take a new look at them. [already cleaned and patched them as I could.]

Plus I feel totally tired mentally. This autumn has been both heaven and hell. I've had good time with my friends, but school is stressing all the time. The spring won't be that bad, I hope. I have two lecture courses, their exams plus the retake of Material Chemistry. After that only labs. I'd rather be doing those than sitting in the classes, listening to [sometimes bad] English teaching and not understand anything as the matters are really complex.

Now to think of it, I think it was a good thing I fell with the bike [though it was rather embarrassing as the road was totally fine, no ice or anything x)] as now I have some aspects of my life in right order. There are things I can affect and some to which I can't do anything. Plus now I know that I must concentrate on my studies more [I don't want another material chemistry...] and keep my emotion shit in the background till I get school in order. But then it's difficult to keep the school number one priority as I keep on thinking about my emotional stuff... Oh fuck... My head is messed up, as usual. *makes NO sense whatsoever*

Better do something else than complain... *goes away*

Will I be alone this morning
Will I need my friends
Something just to ease away the pain
And now I never see the loneliness
Behind my face
I am just a prisoner to my faith

If I could only stand and stare in the mirror would I see
One fallen hero with a face like me?
And if I scream, could anybody hear me?
If I smash the silence, you'll see what fame has done to me

Kiss away the pain and leave me lonely
I'll never know if love's a lie
Ooh - being crazy in paradise is easy
Do you see the prisoners in my eyes?

Where's the love to shelter me
Give me love, come set me free
Where's the love, to shelter me
Only love, love set me free
Set me free

Kiss away the pain and leave me lonely
I'll never know if love's a lie
Ooh - being crazy in paradise is easy
Do you see the prisoners in my eyes?

Where's the love to shelter me
Give me love, come set me free
Where's the love, to shelter me
Only love, love set me free
Set me free

- The Idol by Blackie Lawless [W.A.S.P.]

And...


There's a flame, flame in my heart
And there's no rain, can put it out
And there's a flame, it's burning in my heart
And there's no rain, ooh can put it out
So just hold me, hold me, hold me

Take away the pain, inside my soul
And I'm afraid, so all alone
Take away the pain, that's burning in my soul
Cause I'm afraid that I'll be all alone
So just hold me, hold me, hold me

Hold on to my heart, to my heart, to me
Hold on to my heart, to my heart, to me
And oh no, don't let me go cause all I am
You hold in your hands, and hold me
And I'll make it through the night
And I'll be alright, hold on, hold on to my heart

- Hold On To My Heart by Blackie Lawless [W.A.S.P.]

No words left to describe my feelings

I had icon challenge with fonulyn
My results can be found from here. There's also link to fonulyn's work. Go and see! [stock, actors, musicians (asian and western), games...]

Gee... I feel so listless... I have exam on Friday [the 13th, hehehe...] and I have no energy/will to read for it. I managed to make notes from the chapter 3 [first two are blahblahblah] and there's 14 chapters all together [the last one is blahblahblah as we didn't go through it properly]. And making the notes was just pure hell... I think it took like... 45 minutes as I was falling asleep all the time. That's the effect all school stuff has on me, especially if I'm reading to exams... Now I'm half way (?) of the fourth chapter... Yippey...
So the material is 35 sheets of handwritten stuff and 200 power point slides... and so fucking much to learn... and I don't like the way our lecturer made the notes we wrote, I mean there's not full sentences. It's just scattered sentences or semi-sentences and the big picture is hidden somewhere behind there... And no, I will not find a book about the matter, I'm not that interested in it. And that all for 4 credits! FOUR! What a robbery! I had 5 [FIVE] from Biological chemistry and even that had less material to learn! Plus this Material chemistry is in English! The terms are giving me a hard time, as I have no idea what the English ones are, but then when I hear the Finnish one "oh, yeah... why didn't you tell me that in the first place, I would have understood something at least..."
Yes, this is just a childish rant. I have chosen my way and I have to deal with it, I know. Besides at the moment this one is my favorite course of the two I have at the moment... Cause this one is actually chemistry, not about some FUCKING ANNOYING MACHINE WHO NOBODY REALLY CARES ABOUT! I HATE MASS SPECTROMETRY AND EVERYTHING REMOTELY RELATED TO IT!!!!

Now as I've let that one out, I can say that I had a nice Sunday ^_^ I had couple friends over to eat pulla and drink coffee. We talked shit, played cards and this one board game [Afrikan tähti, Africa's Star]. If I have the energy and people are free on next Sunday, I wouldn't mind baking again.

Last night I was feeling moody and sort of sappy too... I wrote a letter to this guy I might be interested in... I think I'll never give the letter to him though, I just needed to let out some feelings, before I explode. Just as if I didn't have enough to deal with school...
And on top of that I dreamed [yet again] about my old school mates... And the worst thing was that my friend was together with the guy I'm slightly interested in and... Oh man... I just want to delete the part of my brain that makes me think about such things on the opposite sex...

Fuck all this shit! I'll take a break from reading and do something brainless... [like change some icons...]

Yes, just as I suspected the melancholy was over the next morning. But I still can't help about thinking about that one person... Maybe I'll share more of this when I know more what I feel myself. It's just so difficult for me to talk about stuff like that.

What ever...

I had a great night yesterday ^_^ I and three friends gathered together and made some macaroni casserole, talked shit, played card, talked shit and watched two movies. Not to forget drinking my home made beer [no alcohol in it, but I can't be sure though...] If only fonulyn and makaronikeisari could have been there too :/ [But I think they are having a good time in Berlin =D]

After that I and the Chinese guy headed to Cinemare, the horror movie festival in Joensuu to see three movies: Dead Snow [which was a Norwegian zombie-movie about some Nazi-zombies, I liked it, it had some humor aspect also], The Descent: Part 2 [told about some women who had went to explore an old mine and then there was some creatures there and they had to struggle to survive... I hadn't seen the first part, maybe it had nothing directly to do with this one. This one was a good movie too] and Tetsuo: The Bullet Man [There was a guy and he saw when some asshole drove over his son and then he started to change to metal... The beginning was nice, though I couldn't always understand the Japanese woman's English. But after the guy started to transform for the first time the movie got so... I don't know, shitty... And the guy in the leading role looked like Clark Kent =D, quite nice looking btw...]

I bought this year's Cinemare T-shirt! And after the third movie there was a coffee service with some cake, which was rather good... It was Cinemare's 5th birthday, and they said this year they sold more tickets than ever before. [Like in Dead Snow, the cinema was totally filled up, and as we came there rather late we couldn't get two seats next to each other :/]

And this day sucks... Why? Because I suck at cooking... I turned on the wrong disk on the stove and I managed to melt/burn one plastic thing... now the whole flat stinks. Managed to safe fonulyn's room from the smoke... Thankfully I'm here on my own x)

Yes, I think I should play some guitar and read some Material Chemistry [exam on Friday]

Oh yes! It snowed some last night so it's not so dark anymore ^_^

I think this started last night, when I said something to someone in msn and in my opinion we didn't close the subject before the other person had to go.
Then it continued this morning when I was talking with a friend in msn and ended up talking about my "father".
Then it got worse when I was talking with other friend later tonight [msn of course] and I ended up thinking about granny.
Then it got even worse as I was talking to the first said one [in msn of course] about something and something that was said made me feel sad...

Now I'm listening to my H.I.M. album and dwelling in my misery which came from out of nowhere.

I curse you heart for making up things, which don't exist! I curse you for making me feel this way!

I'm gonna block the comments, cause I don't feel like talking at the moment. I'm sorry... Tomorrow will be a better day, I know that...

*goes to emo*

Just when you think you are fine
When you think your life is good
When you think you've had it all in control
It falls down
Comes crumbling down in small shards
What can you do
But to watch aside
And cry
The bitter tears you have been holding back
For so long
Though you have haven't known it yourself

Just when you think you can be yourself
Strong and confident
You fall apart
Because of another human being
Because of something said
Something that wasn't even there
Something just swirling in your head
Something you though was going to be something

Just when you think you are strong
You realize how weak and childish you are
Life doesn't go the way you want it to go
It's something you have to face
Something you have to realize
Before you can go forward
You have to realize you're not strong
Because anything can hurt you
Your heart will make you hurt
Because you think you had something
Because your silly heart thought there was something more...

First of all: I had a fucking awesome weekend!
We didn't do much of anything, really, but it was so much fun! Playing cards, talking, walking, taking stupid pictures... So much fun.

And one thing that made totally my day [that was Sunday]: The Russian guy said it was the best weekend of his life. When he said it in msn, I was almost crying. The Chinese guy was also really excited! I think he will be in the car before us when we go for the next time =D

I managed to find Viikate's "Marraskuun Singlet" from library [cd containing all their singles from Marraskuun lauluja I and II] and I'm totally obsessed with two new songs! Mintun ja Vernerin häävalssi is just ♥ and so is Suruvaippa! The first one is "Minttu and Verneri's wedding waltz" and it's the best waltz I've heard... The lyrics are just ♥ and the music is also ♥ Then there's "Suruvaippa", "Mourning cloak" [it's a butterfly]. When I was listening to it on Monday morning I was totally crying and I don't know why. It's not one of those songs which are just utterly sad. There's just something in the melody and in the usage of words that made me cry. If you can find it from Youtube, listen to it!

Thursday is a big day! BIG DAY! W.A.S.P. in Joensuu!!!!!!!!! makaronikeisari and I are going there! w00t! Have to to wait early as we want to be in the front! I hope Blackie will do more elaborate speaks this time. [He wasn't really talk-full in Tampere 2008] So YEAH for me!

On Saturday there is the problem waste project! People can bring us [meaning the collection point we chemists keep] all the problem waste they have. And in the evening there's the autumn meeting. Just all the chemists, music (probably shitty), free stuff to eat, free drinks and load of talking. It also has a fancy dress code... Have to figure out what I should wear...

And tomorrow I'll go to visit my Russian friend, for our weekly Finnish lesson. Guess I should figure out something to teach to him? He wanted to work with the 15 cases, if I remember correctly.

Yeah... maybe I should go to come up with some tricky words for the lesson and stop the babbling.

[Yes, it's Swedish...]

I really have to learn to eat something in the evenings... I mean this is the second morning I wake up as my stomach is yelling for food. It's just that I don't feel that hungry in the evening. I eat at school [amount enough for the whole day] and then I just don't feel hungry anymore... But if I eat at home, then I'll get hungry again, but I think I'll rather eat something than wake up at 5 or 6 am to my stomach's loud demands...

Whatever... I'm going to Hankasalmi this weekend to visit fonulyn and makaronikeisari's granny. So this time it will be the three of us and our Chinese and Russian exchange students! Both of them are so cool. Last night when I asked if they want to come [through msn] the Chinese boy was "Yes, yes, yes!" which really made me smile ^__^ The Russian boy was a bit unsure as he wasn't sure if he'd be accepted, if you get what I mean, but he was really into the idea of leaving ^__^ So very international weekend for us! We'll have a blast!

The Russian boy has taught me some of the principles of music theory: how to build keys and chords, notes on the fretboard, parallel keys... I'm really excited about that! I liked music at school, and I learned the notes and to read notes, though I can't see directly what note the dot is, but I know the very basics. [Something I'm rather proud of myself] Plus he's really enthusiastic to teach me this stuff. The only thing that's "annoying" me is that every time he comes over [two times thus far] he wants me to sing *_* I'm not too sure enough of myself or my skills to sing to him.. I like to sing and amongst old friends I can sing without feeling embarrassed, it's just with people I haven't know long/well I'm not confident enough to sing. But I want to learn, as I really like singing and I want to learn to sing and play well ^__^ [and as he teaches me some musical stuff, I teach him Finnish and he's good... I mean GOD when it come to learning Finnish. Respect, man!]

What else? Oh, yes... I did a major fuck up with my first "Take home exam", so the professor asked me to do it again. I'm done with it, I just need to check it. And what can I say? It was the best thing that man has ever done to me! I really enjoyed solving the problems and I got some more confidence on my skills! I have to thank him when he gets back to Joensuu next week. I mean I'm all happy, just because I finished the exam!!! And I was really keen on making it! It was fun! Since when have school assignments been fun?!?!?

I've been drawing a bit too, just some eyes as I'm obsessed with them. I need more practice, that's for sure, but I've really enjoyed it! And yes sherg, I really need to put them in deviantart... I've totally neglected it... But you will see the results when I get back, as I actually have even scanned them!

Yes... I think I try to go to sleep for an hour and head for the Analysis methods of polymers-lab... [X-ray diffraction and UV-Vis today]

Have a great weekend!

PS: I want to redo my mood theme... to make it more... uniform... you know... *goes*

Yeah!

I didn't do too great in the Theoretical Inorganic Chemistry exam, got maybe, MAYBE, 8/25 points.. But we have this home exam which is also 25 points, so if I get 17 or more points in it, I will pass the course! *cheers* I have to say that it's rather disturbing how I'm not pissed off because the exam went bad. Rather a good thing after all.

I'm also Bachelor of Science now! [or something like that..] Well, I'm not sure if the red tape is all done, but my thesis, seminar and thesis exam have been approved and I do have all the required minor studies done. AND I had 4/5 from my thesis!!! I mean the guy, who really is THE God in the chemistry department, had 5/5 so I'm REALLY pleased ^__^

Now I'm done with school babble! Maybe one reason for not feeling down about yesterday's exam is because I had a really cool evening with fonulyn, her brother, the Russian exchange student, Chinese exchange student and our friend Janne. We played Skip-Bo [it's a card game], talked a lot of shit, watched Demolition Man [Oh my God, it's so good!!! It surprises me every time ^__^], laughed a ton, talked some more shit and had so much fun! So we spent about 8 hours by doing basically nothing ^____^ I'm so happy we managed to pick those two guys from the exchange students, as they are both really cool and it's easy to talk with them. ^___^ [<- someone is happy?]
Afterwards fonulyn and I went to play Mario Kart Wii at her brother's and we got back home around 1 am.
Two words: so much fun!

Also I hope I will get some serious sleep this weekend, I haven't had a good sleep in weeks.. I get by, but I want to feel really rested for couple days at least. It's just that even if I'm tired, I first can't get to sleep and when I do, I sleep rather well, but then I wake up somewhere around 5 or 6 in the morning and I can't get into sleep again. It's so frustrating.

But my overall mood is extremely happy! ^__^
[And I will hopefully start to play guitar with the Russian guy, when we manage to locate him a guitar! *happyhappy*]

Yeah, now I go and see what pictures I've taken during the past... 5 months...

My seminar went fine, in my opinion at least. I was a little nervous before it, while I was talking about my presentation with the Russian exchange student. But when I was in front of the class it wasn't that bad. [Not many people had turn out.] People didn't ask much questions [1 from my friend and one from the professor], though I actually would have liked to answer some more. fonulyn took couple pics, maybe I'll share some of them later. have to see how braindead I look in them, first

So now I'm waiting for the grading!

Friday will be... Bad... First exam for the autumn, of a course where half of the stuff has gone so over my understanding...
Actually it won't be too bad, spending time with friends in the evening makes it a lot better. Thank God for other chemists!

Okay, now I think I'll go to sleep for half an hour and then start to read and possibly even to understand some of the stuff for the exam...
( something I drew last week[?] )

For the weekend fonulyn and I were at her grannys's [who was, btw doing fine!]. We had nice chats about... something you wouldn't be nearly as interested as us... *coughs* So I had a nice weekend! It was so pretty there, all the leaves getting yellow and the neighbor's dog was as adorable as ever! ♥ *random*

Tomorrow will be my presentation at 9am sharp... At the moment my stomach is going up and down like a roller coaster... Doesn't feel too comfortable, but it will pass. Nothing worse than making a total fool of myself can happen tomorrow! [There's something terribly wrong with that sentence, I'm sure of it. *pukes*] I've trained for this presentation more than to any presentation before, so I feel confident that I'll know what to say, it's just how it will come out of me that worries me. I know that 4 of my friends will definitely be there, [one of them Russian xD,] so I can search some comfort from them. they will be there laughing their asses off and pointing me with a finger Guess I should go through it once more...

Yeah... I funnily feel "too" confident, that's always a bad sign when it comes to me... *babblebabblebabble*

But hopefully, by the end of the week I'll be "Luonnontieteiden kandidaatti!" [Candidate [Bachelor?] of Science]!
*stops babbling*

This totally amused me when I noticed the error x)
Try to find it [no musical skills required to find it]
( under here as it doesn't look nice in my layout )
I have my bachelor thesis "exam" on Wednesday. *panics* My presentation will be on next week's Monday at 9 am. so I gotta wake up early then too... My presentation will take too long... I have to cut it or I'm screwed... *panic*

I really wanna go to see Rammstein on 22.2.2010 when they come to Helsinki!!!!!! *panic*

I've been playing War Ensemble by Slayer... Nice piece... I think my favourite song to play is Nothing Else Matters. Slayer is also nice to play, it's fast and requires patience, but it sounds so catchy, you know.

I drew some cats... Gotta see if I manage to scan them and share then with you... I've just been so tired lately...

Better stop now, before I get too random...

[I've watched all my Onedin Line ); The second season is so expensive still... Maybe I'll buy it as a Christmas present for myself...]

This is for all you friends I managed to forget...

I had my first lessons for the semester today. They were in English :D [came as quite a surprise, well I knew one of them was in English, but now it seems all the "in-depth" courses are in English]

I also saved Lylat today! Aka I played Lylat Wars on N64 ^___^ [let's not count the times I died] and I didn't even got Falco dead!

The promised proper update will have to wait... I'm too tired for that...

Oh yeah, fonulyn and I went to swim today! 1km plus some water running! Nice ^__^

AND! I'm going to see W.A.S.P. on 22.10! In JOENSUU!!!! *happyhappy*

Off to finish up the latest Inspector Canardo in German and to sleep [has a bad engrish day]

Hurrah! I managed to get here alive! I got some flu from the girls, now the sneezing is going away, thankfully.

Gee, I managed to make my seminar presentation yesterday and corrected it a bit this morning. Now I'm just waiting for some comments.

I'll make a proper post later when I get my internet connection to work again. Now I'm just trying to kill time till my friend's seminar starts. [I forgot my phone at home too... It's funny how dependent one can be of such a small thing.. Well I really don't use it for other things than checking the time x)]

Okay.. I'll go play some tetris... I hope I can still play it...

Mom found a carpenter (?) and there's actually a roof on the "entrance hall". Balcony's floor and the outwalls are still under some slight work... *sigh*

Lately I've been so tired of my life. Only way to escape the "shittyness" [I'm doing okay, I just can't keep up with mom's wavelength and she's driving me nuts, sor of] of my life is to play guitar, and I don't seem to have enough time for that. Not that much of enthusiasm either.

Well, I'll be going back to the flat next week or the 31st the latest and try to sort out my thesis stuff. Not that interested of it either... But it'll be better than dwelling in my self-pity.

I've been making up some stories [beginnings actually] in my head, but I haven't had the time to write it down. Not having an own room doesn't really help, neither does waking up at 8 am.

Time has run out, gotta scoot!

I'm totally disgusted with "homelife" at the moment. Mom is being a total ass and I really can't stand it anymore...

I haven't heard anything from my professor and it's annoying me as hell. Should I start to make my presentation slides or what?

I just can't stand anything at the moment...
F**k!

Well, I managed to read "Frankenstein" and Dracula is waiting for me... Maybe that would help [if only I manage to read it... thank you work camp...]

Alive, though I wish I wasn't. Thanks to my back and neck. I've been doing some pitch forking [I guess I can't really use such term, but I am] in mom's greenhouse [getting rid of all the weeds and stuff. Mom has planted some tomatoes now] and yesterday we picked some blueberries. I'll try to make a pie today.

I met two of my friends from high school. It was nice ^_^ It was thundering and we were in the sauna and swam too. Other of my friends had got into the veterinarian school [I'm too dumb to remember the correct term at the moment]. I'm really happy for her ^__^

Haven't heard anything from my professor, guess he's coming back to work on Friday. I haven't really done anything with my presentation slides... Guess I should, though...

I've learned to play Paranoid! It need some polishing, but it's okay. [Simple enough for me..] I've been playing Nothing Else Matters solo too, it's working out nice too. Playing feels more... easy now. Maybe that shows some improvement? I'd really like that electric guitar... Maybe I'd have the courage to play my friend's guitar if he'd let me. Have to see if I'll show off with my recordings in a month or so.

Made some plans for next Tuesday. If the weather is on my side, I'll go fishing! It's been a loooong time since the last time. I hope I get some fish, but if not, I've been having a good time anyways ^_^

Oh, I really hate my computer at the moment. I've progressed with The Curse Of Monkey Island and I should go to the disc 2, but my fucking computer doesn't work! The damn usage of the power is up to 100% and it can't load the game! And the best part is just to come! ;_; I hate technology!

Guess that's it... More blueberry picking on the way to "our beach" to swim. I hope I'll be able to walk x)

See you around!

Hopefully I've packed all I need, just computer and it's attachments are waiting to be packed. Have to wake up early as the bus leaves at 9, and I need to walk to the station, take about an hour with all my stuf. Backpack is 15 kg on it's own, it's been more earlier.

I just took the garbage out and washed the last dishes. How can this be so hard? I've been wanting to go home, and now as the time is finally here, I don't want to. It's not because of internet. I can get there in the library all I need. Maybe it's because there's no friends back at home, no one to talk shit with... And that's what I need, people to talk to. Just some social activity... All I hope is I can borrow mom's bike and do some cycling every now and then... Some time of my own.

But now I'll play some nintendo and hit the sack. Coming back to Joensuu in the end of August. Joensuu thanks. Till the next time! Over and out.

I'm finished with the second version of my thesis, just sent it to my instructor. Hopefully we can discuss about it tomorrow and I get to make the final alternations.

I can't believe that a week from now I'll be at home.. I've been living on my own for almost two months and I've gotten used to it. Have to say I'll miss it. I've just got known with the city, it's really nice in the summer and there are so many places I'd still like to go, but time is running out.. I found a really nice swimming place yesterday, thanks to my friend Janne. It's close to the "herbological-center" and there are some labeled trees close to the beach and I spent some time going through them after taking a swim. And there's still so much to see!

I'm thinking about getting myself an all-terrain bike... I have been cycling quite a lot lately, last weekend I cycled somewhat 150 km all together and it was nice! And all that with my 1-gear bike... Takes a lot of patience, believe me...

My schedule for the autumn looks rather busy :D I have six courses of chemistry and I'm hoping of getting some labs done too. I also have to take my seminar presentation and exam of my thesis 8B I really want to get graduated in 6 years. And if I take some extra courses in chemistry I can compensate them with the final exams. [I can take "smaller" final exam.]

My table is a mess.. I should do some dishing... I should do some cleaning too... Not to forget packing. I don't wanna go home!

Enough of whining! Now I'll play some guitar and scan some Slayer tabs!

I thought the practical part of my thesis would end at 3rd of July and I'd write my thesis after that..
Today, when I walked to my instructor's room, he said he had some news for me and told me to sit down. So.. I have to have my thesis ready to hand out to the professor on the 2nd of July, better if 1st... [x_X]
I have two more combustions to make, not bad, but I need some SEM pictures and the apparatus works when it wants... So I'll get them next week, hopefully.. My instructor gave me some instructions and wished me good luck... Yeah.. gonna need that... But he'll help me with the pictures and the parameters and all...
This came quite... surprisingly. Out of the blue.. Well.. Let's go with this, got no other chance..
Okay... gotta go and check if the gas chromatograph is free, if not, I guess I'll go home and weep write my thesis.
Am I shocked, or shocked?

My thesis is in halfway now :O 3 weeks left, where did all that time go?
But yeah, I couldn't make methane combustion when I came to school at 8, as I realized there was no clean reactors... some dishing had to be done first... Have to go and look my instructor soon and ask if there's something I could do while waiting the glassware to dry. But I'm pretty much done with the combustions, just a few more and that's it.. I've been hard working, done maybe too long days.
( and some more babbling under here )

I've played more guitar this weekend than in the last two weeks. In the week I'm rather braindead and lately I've been lacking the inspiration. But now my forefinger is dying :D Little more playing and the tissue fluids would be running out xD
Been playing Angel of Death the most, really like the riffs in that one. Challenging, but not impossible plus they sound great.

Today I've been listening to Death quite a lot. Once again, Chuck was a genius. Period. I'm really liking more and more of his songs. [And I can never praise Voice of the Soul too much. Damn, that song makes me cry every single time I listen to it.]

I took the garbage out today and as I was taking the glass and metal to the separate recycling place I found a nice pile of plates and two glasses from there :D I don't know if I'm gonna use them. If I can't come up with anything else with them, I'll sell them xD But the glass plate I'm gonna give to mom, she has those plates already so she'll be delighted.

As I was walking back from there, this guy [mother from Jamaica and father from Nigeria or something] asked if I had a cigarette. Well I told him I don't smoke and then he started to chat with me. It was kind of freaky... He tried to fish my phone number and asked if I would like to meet him or something... I said I won't give him my number as I don't know him, but then he said, how can we get to know each other if we don't change numbers and meet again. I don't know if I should be happy I was noted, or if I should be anxious.. Well, he left me alone as I turned to this little path [he was cycling].

Well, whatever. Tomorrow starts third week of the lab part. Methane combustion and methane combustion and methane combustion :D Plus some XRD, SEM and TPR (?) also in the program. I'm still excited about my work! And I managed to draw the equipment I used in the catalyst making process!

Also, I managed to bake cinnamon rolls today ^___^ I'll take some for my friend who's gonna have his master's seminar tomorrow :D
Enough babbling! To bag the buns and to sleep!